Greetings: This past month, things were very often the month moved by way too fast. The theme for this month is going to be the wandering soul. I took some time this previous month and fired up my software with the new updates and my drawing tablet and this is what I came up with. I am hoping that with April, I am able to concentrate on getting my digital skills into a hard media such as oil paint. But I'm not sure if that's going to be possible. There is a lot to do and very little time.

Still down, but not out...

I made it home at a decent time and still felt under the weather, so I spent the evening relaxing. I ate dinner and rolled One Piece on Netflix. It is a cute little adventure about young pirates with special powers. It was not that exciting, but it was able to take up time, and that is what I needed. I took the time to meditate, but that was useless. I worked a little more on the novel and on my data project, and then the day was over. I did put the final touches on my five pieces of digital art for the month, which you can see above.

Out of it, but trying...

I pushed though as best I could, but these allergies are kicking my arse. I wanted to come home and work on the novel and do a few other things, but I just did not have it in me. So, I hit the house, relaxed and went to bed early. I have only gotten about four hours sleep in two days. It is taxing me.

I still need to relax...

I am still not sleeping well because I keep waking up coughing. But it is not nearly as bad as it has been. I will take it. I got off work and ate an early dinner, but I still had little energy to get anything done. I could really use a good night of sleep. Maybe tomorrow.

Backermans and beyond...

I pushed through a decent day and I was able to get off a bit early. I am still in need of a much better night of sleep, but I am feeling a lot better. The only thing that remains is the minor cough and the cramps. They are really hurting and not showing any signs of getting better. Once I got home, I started to work on the weekend list. But there was a monkey wrench in the works in the form of some serious storms. They are going to continue for the next couple of days, and that does not sound like fun at all. I did my catch-up on downloads and cleaned up the rest of the garage. I think that I am done with that project for now. I wanted to get some more writing done, but I cannot concentrate. So I settle for the more mundane things on the list and rolling some stuff on Netflix.

A day down after work - and RAIN...

Okay, I handled that well, or at least I think that I did. There was an incident at work, and it made me do things that I thought were way beyond me at this point in my life. But I guess the old-cat inside me still has some bite and claws. It took a bit to get back to center, and I did not want to have a bad mood when you consider that it was Lauras birthday. I forced a good mood, for the most part, and it worked. I can deal with it later.

The day was filled with torrential rain and lightning. It was not a good day. There was flooding all around the city. Because the wife was not feeling well, I put myself at her beck-and-call, which I was going to do anyway. But she rested most of the day, and it was good for her. In the evening, I risked the rain and floods to get Mexican food from Lopez Grill. It was excellent.

I started a new piece of artwork, but I did not finish it. I wanted to work on Awakening but I could not bring myself to try to concentrate. It was not the best day, but I am feeling a lot better and moving toward feeling good. So I will take it and run.

I have a bunch of new models for Daz3D including some new wireframes and textures. I also have a new collection of filters for Photoshop. I have been playing with them to add more structure to the models and the wind effects in current, and future art. I like it.

Not as planned...

The greater plans of mice and men are often outdone by cheese. And today was a day of cheese. Yesterday was filled with horrible rain and a lot of flooding. That means that everything today was saturated and the skies were still grey. It did not make for a good day to do things outside. So, instead, I worked on some older projects that I have not touched in ages. I finished up my music database and got about half of the audiobook database done. This is related to the backup project that I am working on, and it is well past due. This is where I am going to be putting my concentration for the near future so that I can get it completed before I have the media to back it up. The project(s) took the better part of the day, and I finished out the day by working through my new artwork, which you see above. I am feeling a lot better, but not nearly at the top of my game. I hit bed nice and early to prep for a good week. It WILL be a good week.

Just a little time...

I point out above that the world is in turmoil. This is more than just an arbitrary statement. You can feel the tension in the air with just about everybody. It is like a growing cancer, but one that people are trying to ignore. Someone to ignore it because they feel it is right and others want to ignore it because they feel impotent to fight against it. Either way, the attempt to ignore it is causing a lot of strain.

OK, enough drama for right now. I pushed through and had a decent day for money, even if the people were kind of nasty. And then I got back to the house and continued my audiobook project. It is very unusual to be working on one project at a time instead of rocking a round Robin, but it seems to work out well. I've already been able to finish the music project and I am halfway through the audiobook project. I had to push through JD Robb, and that took more work. The Stephen King section is going to be quite a bear, but once I get past that, it is smooth sailing. Then it will be on to the next project. While I am doing this, I am rolling a bunch of the stuff that was on my watch later list on Hulu and Netflix. It is just a bunch of stuff that I thought looked kind of interesting, and so far I am highly disappointed in the writing abilities of the entertainment groups. Have people forgotten the storyline? How about character development? Hell, I would settle for continuity. Maybe I should have been a critic.

A bit o swing...

I would love to say that the swing that I am talking about is the need to dance, but that is not the kind of swing that I am experiencing right now. I feel like I'm at the beginnings of a mood swing and that is never a fun thing. I continue to have weird dreams, and the world continues to turn. As long as those two things are happening at the same time, the wheel can turn to any point. Of course, if either of those were to stop, I would be concerned. But I am just talking from the hip.

Better, mostly...

I did not want to get out of bed in the morning, and I wanted to crawl back in bed as soon as I got home today. Physically, I am feeling a little better, but my mental state is degrading. I feel I'm in the doldrums, and my sales cannot catch air right now. I know that the pendulum swings, but it seems stuck right now. It feels like it's been like this forever, but only a few days have passed. I am trying to maintain realism and recognize the world around me.

Looking toward the light...

I woke up dragging my wagon this morning. I have not been sleeping well, and today is no exception. The most significant difference is that I did not want to get out of bed this morning. I stayed in bed for almost 90 minutes after I first woke up, which is very unlike me. When I got home, I continued the audiobook project, which is progressing well. I can see the end of it. Considering that I did not have that slated for completion until close to the end of the year, I will take that as one serious win. I hit a minor snafu because I was missing quite a few books, but I could rectify that. The only thing I can think of that has been lost is William Shakespeare's and Stephen R Donaldson's complete works. Shakespeare, I have been able to replace it for the most part, but Donaldson's works are another story. They are not available. I will have to keep trying because The Chronicles of Thomas Covenant is one of my favorite series ever.

A night of comedy...

Today was the big day. I was off from work nice and early, and I went home to relax. Usually, sleep would follow relaxation, but that was not the case today. I stayed up later today than I have in a very long time, almost 10:00 PM. Why would I stay up so late? Because my wife, my daughter, and I went to a comedy show with Henry Cho. I have to admit that the dude is funny. We enjoyed ourselves and that is what counts. We have been looking forward to this for quite a while. The opener for the show was Nathan Wallace. I have to say that I am not a fan. His entire act seemed to be on fat-shaming, impersonal degradation of the self. He had a few zingers, but I did not find him funny. I agree that we should be able to laugh at ourselves, but he does not bring it. Don't get me wrong, I think some people would find him very funny, I am just not one of them. In his defense, he admits that he's only been doing this for about two weeks professionally, so he has plenty of time for improvement. I wish him luck.

I looked at my recent work, and there are too many people. So today, I listened to a 15-minute audiobook on expressionism and tried to capture the idea. How did I do?

Now this is a decent day...

Here is some foreshadowing for you: I believe the dishwasher has gone to Valhalla. But we will not be able to confirm that until tomorrow morning. I already know the answer, but I will still have to troubleshoot. For now, we will be optimistic.

First things first, it was a perfect day. After getting to bed so late last night, I did not sleep nearly as well as I had hoped, but my internal clock is working just fine. Considering my plans for the coming week, that will be very important. But I was up and in motion nice and early, and I blew right through the end of the audiobook project. And by that, I mean that it is done. Pretty exciting, right? Maybe it isn't that exciting unless you have been in the middle of it, but it is exciting to me. This also means that tomorrow I get to pick the next project I will blow out of the water.

After finishing the audiobook project, I grabbed one of these smaller educational audiobooks on expressionism to test the quality. The quality was just fine, inspiring me to do the piece you see above. This is not my style, but I think it came out OK. I may explore this a little later, but for now I will drop it.

Then it was time for some fun with Laura. That fun time consisted of doing our tune-up on our Chevy Spark. The car has been acting up for a while, and it's about $900 to get the spark plugs changed. That is completely ridiculous, so we decided to do it ourselves. When I went to buy the parts at AutoZone, they were almost $400. Talk about sticker shock. Laura found them online for about 1/10th of the price of the service fee. And we set out on the adventure to do the task. It was not nearly as hard as people make it out to be. It took about an hour, and she did a test drive afterwards, and it seems to have worked, but only time will tell.

I grabbed the nap in the air mid-afternoon, and then I was ready for the evening. There was some personal family time, and I relaxed watching a new season of Black Mirror on Netflix. I have been waiting for that season to drop for a long time. It was an excellent reward for a decent day. Tomorrow, I have to muster the horses and get everything in line for the coming week. I have a plan, and the world trembles when I have a plan.

By the numbers...

Being Sunday, this was truly a day off for me. I had no obligations other than those that I imposed on myself. The most significant thing that I did was to get everything set up for the week. So that I will have no distractions and be able to work my new schedule. Once that was out of the way, I was free to do as I liked.

The first part of the adventure was taking care of the lawn. I wanted to do both the front and the back, but I ran out of time because of the battery. The front yard did not completely deplete the battery, but it did not leave enough juice to get the backyard done. This is especially true since I want to bag the backyard to take care of the little balls from the tree. At Laura's suggestion, I'm going to bag the entire backyard instead of just shooting the balls all over the place. But I did get the entire front yard done and I did the weed whacking.

Next, it was time to relax with a little artwork. You will notice that there is no new artwork but stood for today. Why would this be? Simply put, the one that I did today would be considered not safe for work. Anybody that knows me would not consider me a prude. In fact, all things being considered, I would probably fall on the opposite end of that spectrum. But when it comes to artwork, or at least displaying my artwork, I am a bit conservative. Because the subject that I did today could be considered risque, I have chosen to keep it to myself. If anyone would like to see it, you can message me and I will send it to you directly. Aside from that, it will stay in my personal collection.

The next adventure was double checking my data. With the completion of the audiobook project yesterday, that means that my digital collection is complete. This is a multi year project. I cannot believe that it is over. The only data that remains to be sorted is my PDF collection, but that is going to take years in itself and that is outside the scope of this part of the project.

Moving on. Once the fun stuff was out of the way and I do include the yard in that, it was time to tackle the problem of the week. The dishwasher has stopped washing dishes. I checked the troubleshooting guide and it gave me about 5 things to check and the entire process took about four hours. Once I had gone through all the processes, I tested the machine and found that that did not fix it. The most likely culprit is the water pump. It is still pushing water through the system and I've checked every entrance and exit point and they are clear, but it does not have the power to do what it is supposed to do. Having it repaired by a professional would cost as much as replacing the unit. So that is going to be a talk with the wife. Until then, we are back in the stone ages and washing dishes by hand. Ohh the horror.

Next, and almost at the end, it was time to cook a rack of ribs. I made the dry rub from scratch, and I put the ribs in the instapot. They came out quite well and then I cleaned up the kitchen and the day of toil was done. I finished out the day by working on the novel and then it was time to sleep.

Now for hell...

I have been using Firestone for a very long time, and I have never had an experience like I had today. Regardless of what I'm getting done on the car, they are usually professional, keep me updated, and work quickly at least in perspective of what is happening in the world. Today was another story. I got the Firestone around 1:30 in the afternoon, and I did not leave there until almost 7:00 in the evening with nothing more than a nail in my tire. Every Bay was full, and there were only two or so technicians on staff. I understand that there is an employment issue, but that was not the problem. The problem is that they finally pulled my car in after about four hours and removed the front tire. This is a very good thing because that is the only tire that has never been replaced since I got new tires. Then some more waiting happened because the technician who was working on my car went home. He left the car in the air with the tire off and no instructions. To top it off, nobody noticed. When the front desk manager left and was replaced by a second front desk manager, they did not notice until I asked about it. One of the other technicians agreed to stay late and finish up the car, and did the rest of the inspection that the first technician failed to do. They found a second tire with a screw in the side wall. This means that two tires had to be replaced. Without getting angry, I pointed out the inconvenience of a 5-hour wait to repair a tire without explanation. The front desk manager made up for it by giving me more than half off the entire process. It still left me irritated. I was exhausted and beyond hungry. But the day was over and I made the best of it. Tomorrow is another day.

Buddy, can you spare an electric shock?...

The most prevalent problem today is exhaustion. Due to the extremely long day yesterday and getting to sleep so late, I did not have the juice in me to continue to the second part of the day. I shut it down and headed home. I spent the afternoon meditating and relaxing in preparation for tomorrow. I am not doing that bad, but I will have a short day on Thursday because I have to be home for the HVAC check-up. So I have to do my best to milk the remaining days for what they're worth. With the dishwasher down, the family attempts to stay ahead of the dishes and keep the kitchen relatively clean. I am doing my part in this, and so far it is working. This weekend we will figure out how to deal with the situation.

I would take some time and work on the novel this afternoon, or at least that was the plan. But by the time I got settled in and ate a peanut butter sandwich, I did not have any juice left to do anything but a little bit of e-mail, and update the blog. I did not have the brain power to work on the novel. It has been a rough start to the week, and I am hoping that it finishes nice and clean. I have a lot on deck for the weekend, and quite a bit of that rides on the ability to meet both of my goals in the five days that make up the week. Fingers crossed.

Daily exhaustion...

Once I got home, I was exhausted again. I do not believe that this is being caused by the longer hours, but by the lack of sleep since Monday. Everything is like trying to swim up a river and by the time I got home there was little that I could do but sit and stare until it was time to eat and go to bed. Thankfully, Laura made hot dogs and hamburgers and they perfectly hit the spot.

Annoyance...

I had to be back at the house by 10 AM, which cut the day short. I had to be there to take care of the air conditioning and the bi-annual checkup. It was a bit of an annoyance. I was hoping that they would get there nice and early, but I received a call about 11:00 AM saying that we were on the schedule, but a technician had not yet been dispatched. I worked on some stuff around the house, and I worked on my novel. I also looked into the Phelps security position and filled out an application. The position is for a field supervisor who goes from site to site overnight and makes sure that people are awake. Additionally, I investigated the pay rate of forklift operators in the Memphis demographic. Even without experience, the rate of pay is between $15.00 an hour and $35.00 an hour. Plus, I could work at places like Home Depot or Lowe's on the overnight shift. Because of my conversation with one owner of the training company, I can get the training for about $100, which is good for three years. It is something that I'm going to consider, but first, I have to get a good week of rideshare in. And this was not one of those weeks. So the rest of the day was spent waiting for the HVAC company and doing odd jobs around the house. Part of my weekend list.

To breathe free...

First thing in the morning, I was up and out the door in record time. So I did very little before I went to work. I pushed through the day and made it home in the early afternoon, but I was beyond exhausted. I took a little time and downloaded my new 3D models for the week, which are very exciting. Before I went to bed, I preloaded both the hardware and the software so that I could work on a few ideas I had for the new models first thing in the morning. Fingers crossed, then I will be able to get something out in the morning.

I am very excited about the 3D software updates this week. I received Megan and a bunch of accessories for her. She did not come with any textures, but the wire frame is excellent and has several pivot points that make her very easy to pose. I dropped her into my virtual studio; here you see what came out. The demon and supplicant are separate projects I've been working on since the beginning of the year. The other four are Megan.

I work harder on my days off...

I did not sleep well, but took full advantage of the lack of sleep. Since I did not have to work today, I could work through the day without worrying. As you see, I started the day with my new 3D model, Megan. I like these models, I can put them into a virtual studio and treat them like a human being. Granted, I set my palette and tools to the psychedelic 1960s, but that was intentional. The Megan model reminds me of some old 1960 movies, and the palette and tools were appropriate.

I had quite a few things on the agenda for today, but I only got through a few because they were incredibly time-consuming. The big thing for the day was to take care of the front and the rear lawn. I knocked that out using 1 1/2 batteries on the new lawn mower. That is pretty good staying power for an electric device. Between charges, I did the edging and the weed whacking around the front and the rear, and it worked out pretty well. The batteries charge quickly. The yard is not perfect, but it is getting there. One of the most significant issues that I have right now is the intrusion of moles. I will have to remember to jump on Amazon in the morning and add some mole pellets to the shopping cart. While I am at it, I will put it in writing here so I do not forget that I want to add the magnetic strip for the bathroom shower. Apologies, that was just a personal segue.

Next on the list was the Jeep. I had to get gas for the Jeep, and they have to get it started and see if there's anything else I need to do before I sell it. I was able to get the gas, but I ran out of steam and had to sit and relax. Say what you will, but the people who work at the landscaping companies are very underrated. All I did was mow the front and the backyard, and I was exhausted. I could not imagine doing that in the heat for 8 or 10 hours daily.

As the evening rolled around, I ate my dinner and then sat and watched a movie. The funny thing is that I do not remember what movie I watched, even two hours later, because I was not really paying attention to it. I'm sure that if I were to concentrate, I could figure it out, but it's not that important. It was a nice hard day's work, 20 glasses of water, and a restful evening. Tomorrow is another day.

Winding down...

This was the beginning of spring cleaning. I did a spic and span job on the downstairs bathroom, and the mini bathroom off of the master bedroom. They have not been touched in a while and were starting to get on my nerves. Today, I had to cut a hole in the wall of Willow's closet to find the source of the Jack and Jill bathroom leak. That's going to turn into a much larger project than I thought it was going to be. On the positive side, when I opened the wall, I was not immediately inundated with festering mold. It was a possibility, but that is not the case. To properly get at whatever is leaking, I will have to remove the inner wall, but that is a project for a time that is not now.

I caught up on some of my lessons that I have let go to the wayside, because there have been other priorities. I have my art lessons in one place and my digital art lessons in another. I'm continuing with my programming and my language lessons. I must build it all into a good routine again to accommodate the new working hours.

One thing that is getting on my nerves is that I have not had the time to play with my bell-bottom pattern. I need to take the time and get that done. But the yard work was very time-consuming, and the wall outside the bathroom was a priority. Now, I just have to sit back and see what I can do about getting into a routine that will accommodate everything that I want to get done.

Yesterday I put up the five pieces of artwork I have been working on, and I have a sixth piece, but it is nowhere near complete. I hoped to get that online this weekend, but that did not happen. I also took the time to review about half of the magazines I had sitting, and there is still quite a stack to go through. I made sure that I drank lots of water and got a bit of exercise so that maybe my muscles will stop revolting. Don't ever get old.

Finally, I rolled the show Blacklist In the background while I was doing everything else and I am liking that show. It is not very realistic to life, but it is entertaining. I wanted to watch Golden Compass this weekend, but could not get in the mood for it. I did not want to take the time to watch a movie. At the height of my migraine, I did watch Thor: Ragnarok, but mostly for the Led Zeppelin soundtrack. What can I say? Good old rock'n'roll can help when you are out of sorts.

Push on...

Work went well, and all that remained was for me to get to the gym. And I got it done. I did 2 miles on the elliptical in a mountainous terrain setting, and then I worked my upper body a little.. I will not overdo it, and I will increase slowly. But I made it to the gym and did what I said I would do. I'm still debating whether I will do three or five days a week, and I will see how I feel in the morning.

When I got home, the first thing I did was take a nice, hot shower. I forgot this morning, and I do not like feeling crusty. While I was in the shower, I put my potatoes in the oven and set up my coffee for the morning. Everything went like clockwork. I came down, did e-mail, and updated the blog, and then it was the end of the day. I have a lot of brain work that I have to do, and I have a few things to do around the house, but they will all wait till this weekend.

The final thing I did was work on my artwork and studies. The artwork still needs a lot of work before I can post it, and I am so far behind in my studies. It is time to anchor down and push on. If I can get this new routine in place, it will clear up my weekends completely, and I'll be able to do stuff like work around the house and take a day camping. It's warm enough now that I could do it whenever I want, but I have too many obligations to get out of the way first, and I have to set my priorities. It is good to take care of your head, but not at the cost of your body, or anything else necessary. I have to set my priorities.

Fraying at the edges...

It was bound to happen sooner or later, but I am starting to fray at the edges with the ride share. I think it has something to do with the drop of drivers, and the fact that they have to allocate more of the unprofitable runs to the drivers that remain. Usually, the algorithm is very good at giving us a melting pot of good and bad rides. Since there are more negative rides than positive rides, we all have to pick up the slack. It's very annoying. By the time I got home, I just wanted to eat and sleep period but even that didn't work and I got to bed late.

Relax and breathe...

On my way home, I decided to grab Virgil and go to the 7th level of hell. OK, that might be an exaggeration. But I did stop by Walmart, the bad one, to get Laura's milk. While I was there, as soon as I walked in, I saw a few men that were about to commit a nice push out. I brought this to the attention of those in charge and went about my day. I think they got them. Not my problem period then it was home to play catch up on everything before I ate dinner and went to bed. Boy is my life boring right now. This weekend, I plan to sit down and reevaluate what I am doing for a living. I think it may be time to shake things up a little.

Pushing the wall...

I am still working with the new models, and this time it is facial structure. I was going for fear or terror, but I think that I might have gotten anger. The book that I'm reading right now is about the musculature of the face in different expressions. I think that I might have gotten this one wrong. Everything else is just window dressing.

Relax or else...

I am still fighting the physical ailments. I am almost a month into daily cramps in my legs and mid body, as well as some of my more tender bits. My head has been acting up and so has my stomach. In short, I am falling apart. I have a feeling that a lot of this is environmental because of the pollen level. That is giving me the headache, and I'm sure there's sinus drainage that is making my stomach upset. Not being able to sleep properly makes me move my legs around too much and that causes the cramps. Just because you know where something is coming from and doesn't mean it is a good thing. Especially when there's nothing you can do about it because I will not live in a hyperbaric chamber three months out of the year just because the trees want to spread their wild oats.

Anyway, I got back to the house at a decent time and I spent the afternoon working on my artwork and the novel and relaxing. The migraine has gone through the top of my head and it feels like chipmunks are using jackhammers to open my skull. Concentrating on things probably was not my best plan, but it worked out. We had Taco Bell for dinner, and I know that I'm going to regret that. But it was pretty good. One of these weeks, I think we should have Chinese from Asian star. It has been a while and I am dying for some lo mein. What a strange craving.

This weekend, I have quite a bit on my plate, but I'm not sure exactly what I'm going to get done. More, it depends on a solid night's sleep tonight, so I have my fingers crossed for that one. The big things that I need to get done are cleaning up the car and getting the plumbing checked. And we will go from there. I have to make it a point to get to the doctor next week to get my medications updated, and I really need to get this novel completely edited and allocate the money for the publishing. I keep reading the same chapter repeatedly and I am my own worst enemy. But that is a story for another time, no pun intended.

I got into bed at a decent time and I sent my thoughts out to the land of Morpheus to see if he would be kind. I guess we will find out tomorrow.

Fight on...

Yesterday, I said that I hoped I would get a good night's sleep and that would lead to an outstanding day. That did not happen. In fact, whatever was running through my head had me awake before midnight and I could not get back to sleep. However, I took advantage of that and I could tear through quite a bit that was sitting on my desk while I did not have a headache. That was a welcome relief, but it did not last for the day.

I finished the next phase of the library archives, and I am slowly getting there. I tried to work on a piece of artwork that does not include a physical form of a human being, because I know my wife likes landscapes better, but I just could not get there. No matter what theme I tried, be it a winter's day, or a seascape, they just came out very bland. Between three hours on that and three hours of meditation to dispel some of the negative energy, that was six hours of time that were pushed out of the day and produced nothing. Please don't get me wrong, the meditation was helpful to adjust my mood, and working on the landscapes was soothing, but I did not like the output.

By the time that I finished with my meditation, my art lessons, e-mail and blog, the world was in motion. Once Willow was up and in motion, it was time to tear apart walls. I cut a nice big hole in the wall behind the tub, and it was bone dry. That surprised me. As the day worked onward, the headache returned as a quadruple migraine, but I forged onward. I used a minor meditation technique and a little luck and cut a hole in the garage's wall and I might have found the problem. It looks like there are two holes in the drainage pipe that are leaking. It's easy enough to fix once I get the putty and that has been ordered. If that is the answer, then I will take it.

By the time I finished with my plumbing adventures, the migraine had quadrupled in effect. I sorted out my medication and did a bit of paperwork that had been sitting and mostly listened to music and watched movies in the background to end the day. Tomorrow, I have to prepare for the week and I still have a bunch of things on my To Do List.

Be lazy, it is alright...

I do not actually believe that it is OK to be lazy, even on my day off, that I decided that I was going to own it and that is exactly what I did. I fixed the 3D printer, and I did a test print that came out fine. I cleaned up a bit of the garage, but it was raining outside and I could not do any of the outside work. So I worked on my data collection, did some of my studies, tried a bit of artwork that did not come out well, and spent the rest of the day relaxing. It was not the greatest use of my time, but I am OK with it.

Bad Juju...

I got a decent night's sleep, and I was up and in motion right on time period because I had prepped everything the night before, I was ready to walk out the door well before I had to. The negative time at work completely destroyed my positive attitude. I pushed until the end of the day and by the time that I got home, I was very tightly wound. I made a conscious choice to sit and watch a cute movie, Afterlife of the party, starring Victoria Justice. Victoria plays a girl who dies near her 25th birthday and is sent back to reconcile with her best friend and both of her parents. It is a cute tear jerker and exactly what I needed. I took all my plans for the evening off of the plate and watched the movie instead. I believe it was the proper choice because it rebalanced my mood, and it's never good to go to bed in such a negative head space. It did blow the evening out of the water, but I can accept that. I tried to work on my artwork again, but it was too frustrating and I wound up deleting it. I'm having the same problem with the novel. I think that I may be in a creativity block situation. Time to go back to some of the old techniques of breaking those blocks. Now, I just have to remember what those techniques are. Then it was time for some lazy chicken parmesan and bed.

My dreams have been obscure lately and I decided to use my 3D software and some of the new wireframe models to try and give them a face. This young lady, 13 years old, is a recurring character in my dreams. Sigmund Freud said that when you dream, they are either memories of things you have seen, or fantasies, then incorporate what you know. This woman identifies as my wife, whom I have known for 30 years. But this is not what she looks like. This image has appeared to me on numerous occasions and in numerous situations. I think that I have gotten very close to the image that is in my dreams. It's a basic wireframe on a standard background. Perhaps there will be more later.

A NOPE day...

First, I woke up very late, and I was an hour late getting on the road. Then I got nickel-and-dimed to death for seven hours. After expenses, it comes out to about $10.00 an hour. So I decided to head home, eat lunch, and reset. When I headed back out of the house, I made the decision to stop by the doctor's and get my medication refilled. That went well. I logged back in and found my account shut down and I had to deal with that. By then, I was getting tired and I was too tired to get back on the road by the time they got everything fixed. I called it a day and worked on my artwork and my novel. Tomorrow is another day, and I'm heading to bed early so I can start out early. I have to find a way to catch up, and I have to find a way to do the mental health thing.

Sigh of relief...

This week has been one of the worst in recent memory, but it looks like it might have turned around at least for today. Since I was up on time, I could get everything done in the morning, and I even started the day with my new breakfast, biscuits and gravy. But it was not thin and runny biscuits and gravy; I made it all from scratch. OK, I used a gravy packet, but I did the rest alone. It is thick and chunky, and the biscuits came out excellent from scratch. It was a wonderful start to the day, and everything went uphill. Considering everything was running downhill all week, it is a welcome change.

Back at the house, I took the time to sit down and relax and catch up on everything that I am behind on. I think that I can finally say that I am even keel on everything that I am supposed to be getting done. I took a little bit of time to investigate how to grow honeysuckle because Laura told me that Willow was interested. I put a set of the supplies in the Amazon cart, and we will go from there. I was going to fix the drainage pipe today, but I do not know the last time that Willow showered or when she's going to and I think I will hold this off until Friday. Besides that, it was a relaxing afternoon and I was in bed early, hoping for another good day tomorrow.