Greetings: An update on the previous month. All things considered; January 2025 was a dumpster fire. Most of that statement is based on politics. Donald J. Trump assumed his role again as President of the United States, and he has proceeded to RIP apart this country. He has attacked not only immigrants, but anybody that does not look and think like him. We are less than a month into this presidency and he has torn the country into pieces. I would like to say that this kind of thing does not affect me, but that is not true. I hear it from everybody, and the people are scared. An entire country is afraid. My personal life pales in comparison.
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...friend or enemy?...
Febuary 01, 2025
Easy...
It is Saturday and because of that, it would be an alternate ride-share day. Because I have been feeling off lately, I made the choice to take an extra day off this week and this is going to be it. The only thing that I did for work was the bookkeeping for the week. Then I put it out of my head.
A productive day.
I took today off and I will let time control itself. I went into the day with no expectations, and that worked out pretty well. The biggest things for the day was a fishing trip down to the wolf river where I met some very interesting hippies, including one Starla Skylight. She stood over me while I was wrestling with a pretty big catfish that snapped my line. Three of her friends, or commune members, or whatever, stood close by, watching and waiting. I do not know what they were waiting for, but whatever it was, I was not interested. They invited me back to their camp, and this is how horror movies begin. I gently declined their offer and then came on home. I could not get the horror movie reference out of my head during the interaction. They were obviously stoned, and i am positive that they were harmless, but still.
Back at the house, I started going through my list and was playing catch up and then planning on taking a nap, but that idea got thwarted. We decided it was time to rearrange the bedroom to make way for the new bed, which should be here in a few days. The mattresses have already come, and we have unpacked them. But we had to move everything around to make room for the split-king. We said that it was going to take about an hour, and it took closer to two. However, we got everything moved around and we got through some books where I found at least two dozen that I thought were gone. And now I have another project which is exactly what I needed. But the job is done and now we are ready for the new bed.
I finished prepping my curtains, and that is going to be one of the first things on the list tomorrow. I need to get those hung before the next cold snap hits. Of course, that damn Groundhog says there's going to be 6 more weeks of winter, and we know a Groundhog is the most viable way to measure the weather. However, it is what it is and we will deal with it. After I took my nap and got the curtains prepped, the rest of the day was relaxation, which was the intent of taking the day off.
Since it is the beginning of the month, I know that you were expecting to see anywhere from three to five new images at the top of the page. Honestly, I am not in the mood this month. I am kicking myself because it has been 11 months since I decided to do the webcast and I still have not gotten that together. It is partially because of missing some vital equipment, but that is just an excuse and I recognize that. I can do the start with what I have and I need to do so. Right now, the only thing holding me back is the space that I am working in, but once the curtains are up, that excuse is gone. I said that I was going to use this weekend to bring everything together, and I really think that I might fail in that because I still feel, at the end of the day, like I am waffling.
Not what was expected..
...for good or bad...
Febuary 02, 2025
Preparations...
The wheel has turned and it is my second day off this week. Of course, I am feeling guilty about not working this weekend, and that is just something I have to own. But I did take the time to come up with a plan for the week, and I signed up for the next challenge. Now all I have to do is digging my heels and get it done.
Spinning my wheels.
This was not the most relaxing day that I could have had. I spent the lion's share of the day trying to get the curtains up for my space. It was challenging, and I only got it half done. I was having a little trouble with my equilibrium on the ladder. I know that this is because of sinuses, but it is still annoying as hell. When I could finally get onto it, my straight line was anything but. I got half of the curtain into place and then I gave up.
In between my curtain adventures and afterwards, I studied my Spanish, tuned my guitar, played with the 3D printer, went through every job board, and basically tried to do relaxing things. I have my reading material in place so that I can start that project again, and I watched the movie The purge. These things are getting way too close to reality.
I purposely took I am off from my novel this weekend and I will jump back in with both feet next week. I recognized I was getting way too anal retentive with my editing process, and I know that this is a stall technique. Recognizing something and doing something about it are two different things. So I made the choice to act on it directly. I am sitting with some serious negative feelings about not working this weekend and not touching the novel, but in both cases it was the proper thing to do and i will just have to get over it.
On an interesting side note, one of my local political friends has requested coffee. They want to discuss the best way to get out of the country for four years. I can't help but wonder why that would be. I told them then I would try to make the time sometime this week to meet them at the voodoo cafe. I don't know if I will find the time or not. They are a full retiree, so they have nothing but time. I will do what I can.
A decent start..
...I think...
Febuary 03, 2025
New goal...
I set a new goal for my daily rideshare, and I took it up by about 10%. The week started out well, and I did not have any problem meeting that goal. There are some changes coming to Uber that are supposed to launch on the 24th that are supposed to increase top driver pay by a significant percentage. I don't have full details yet, so we shall see what happens. But for now, I am dealing with the new goal and it is going pretty well. I hope that will hold through the week.
Already tired.
We are only on day one of the week, and I am already tired. I woke up on time, but i forgot to stop and get something for lunch for the week. That is disappointing. But I may do with the day and I pushed through, getting home mid afternoon. I hit the job boards right away, and that took so long that i did not have time to hang the other curtain. But I will get to it, eventually. Hopefully, sometime this week. I'm going to have a chunk out of my day tomorrow because I'm going to stop and have coffee with Barbara. We have been saying that we would do this for about a year and I've just never gotten around to it. It will give me a chance to check out the voodoo cafe here in Bartlett. Other than that, things are calm. At least for now.
The week..
...she rolls on...
Febuary 04, 2025
Rough Rough Rough...
I was hoping for a decent week this week, but that is not going to happen. I am back to being Sisyphus and trying to push that boulder up the hill. The good part is that I'm not letting it get me down; the bad part is that it's trying very hard. Everybody is on edge. At the same time, I understand why constant conversations about what is happening in the government are starting to get on my nerves. People are looking for an outlet, but I am not a bartender. If I had access to that much booze, I would probably be an alcoholic right now. Thankfully, I am mindful of that potential, and they don't let it happen.
Pushing through.
I pushed through the workday and made it home, but my mood was lacking. I had lunch with Barbara today at the Voodoo cafe, and it was the same conversation as in Uber. She is ready to skip the country if she can find the means. I am hearing this a lot. The Voodoo Cafe is decent; however, it is just another overpriced coffee joint. But a good coffee joint. I finally got a call back from Memphis cardiology and am scheduled for my next week's exam. Right now, I am running $75 down for the week and hoping that I can play catch up.
Febuary 05, 2025
Yeah, we were talking ROUGH...
This has not been the most fabulous week, and we are right in the middle. It is still significantly like pushing a rock up a hill, and it does not look like it's going to get any better. But that is OK because I am allowed to have a off week now and then. I'm still coming at this from a positive point of view, even though these consistent conversations about what's going on are getting ridiculous. I am almost to the point where I want to pretend I cannot speak English.
Das Humpity hump.
The hump day has come and gone, and it is not nearly as interesting as it sounds. Work is getting on my nerves, mainly because of the conversation, and I am hitting the house exhausted. It is not a mental exhaustion but a physical one caused by a mental situation. However, the new bed is in place, and it is doing well. It is a bit of an adjustment because it is much more firm than the previous mattress, but the previous mattress was very soft with wear. I think that once I adjust to it, it's going to be a decent sleeping experience. I have not tried the massage features yet, but I will get around to it sooner or later.
Okay,..
...some improvement...
Febuary 06, 2025
Off to Nashville...
The week continued in a horrible phase when it started rounding toward the afternoon. I received a request for a trip to Nashville, which was immediately taken away from me. I ran a few more rides, and then the Nashville run returned. I picked the guy up in West Memphis, AR, with his dog, Elvis, and we began our journey. It looks like three other drivers picked up the run, but once they found out about the dog and they saw the rider, they canceled the run. Their loss is my gain. The dog was very friendly and calm for the entire trip, and the rider was a trip. He was a real-life gypsy. He has been traveling the roads of America for nine years without setting down roots. The best thing about the run was that the conversation was about music and life on the road. He was not even aware for the most part of the political situation, and he stated up front that it was not a topic of conversation that he would like. The ride made for a very long day, especially since I had two ride back unpaid, but he gave me a perfect tip to make up for it. I have caught up with the week.
No personal time.
Because of the extended day with the trip to Nashville, I hit the house, and it was time to go to bed before I knew it. I had no time for anything personal today, but it was a good trade-off.
And the week ends,..
...in handcuffs...
Febuary 07, 2025
Now THAT was amusing...
I rolled through the day trying to hit my goal, and I could do so, but only after a little bit of drama that involved the Police Department. I received a ride request for a sleazy little motel on Lamar Ave. There were specific instructions that the rider did not have a telephone, and that I should pull up and knock on the door of one of the motel rooms. I pulled right up to the door when I pulled into the cul-de-sac that makes up the motel. When I looked to the right, I saw three police cars with their lights off. I got out and knocked on the door, only to turn around to a police officer requesting information. He wanted to know my name and to see my identification. I remained silent, as is my right. After about 90 seconds, he handcuffed me with my hands in the front. Oh, look, a rookie. While I continued to remain silent, two other officers came up to see how things were going. I knew these officers from a previous incident. I smiled, remained silent, and one of the officers read me Miranda. Then I spoke. I explained that my ID was in the car and retrieved it. I also grabbed my phone and showed that I had a pick-up at this location with specific information on contacting the rider and transporting her down to Poplar Ave. for her court case. The rookie was apologetic. It was only his second day on the street. I could have made such a big deal, but I was just amused. Everybody has to learn somehow. I finished up the morning and hit my goal, and then it was time to head home. I am glad this week is over.
Something different
I felt the need for some black and white and I also felt the need to do something masculine. I reflected on myself in meditation, the first meditation that i have done in about a week. This looks nothing like me, but I feel that it is me and that does not make any sense.
The end of the week.
I got back to the house, and I was still feeling annoyed from the week, but I decided to relax. I took care of Laura's car, which had a bad tail light, which was a bit of an annoyance. 1st, I went to AutoZone and discovered that the light I was looking for was only available in Mississippi. So I wound up going over to O'Reilly's. They were a little more expensive, but they had the light. Unfortunately, it was the wrong light. I went back out and got the correct light, only to find out that I had forgotten my wallet, so I had to do it all over again. I finally got that repaired with Laura's help, and then I settled in and checked out some of the job sites. I have no idea how I will run this weekend, but I will take it one step at a time and see how things go. I headed to bed early and settled in for a good night's sleep.
I will regret it later..
...or not...
Febuary 08, 2025
Paperwork...HO...
Because it is Saturday, normally it would be one of those days when I run my alternate rideshare. Because of circumstances partially within my control, I stayed home today. I believe it was the right choice and all that I did for work today was finish out the paperwork for the week. I may regret this later, but for now, I'm going to own it.
Ouch, Bad Juju.
One of the most significant reasons that I chose not to go to work today was the fact that I woke up with a serious migraine. The most probable cause of this was dehydration, and I started to take steps immediately to take care of that. It took almost 12 hours for it to dissipate, but eventually, I got there. Since I got up so early, I took a nap and woke up ready to go. I tackled the front and backyard and completed them with the new lawn mower. This has been something that has been on my list since fall. The new lawn mower in leaf mode made quick work of the project. It took about 3 hours and I had to recharge the battery one time. Unfortunately, by the time I finished that project, I had nothing left to do anything else. So I worked on my novel and waited for bedtime.
Febuary 09, 2025
Job sites...
The workday for today consisted of going through the job boards. It was a more significant adventure than I had planned. Because I have updated my resume, it opened quite a few options to me and I had hundreds of advertisements to go through. While I applied for quite a few of them, they took on a nasty air because of something I was already aware of. Many of the sites have a quick apply button, and they are quickly becoming red flags. When you hit quick apply, your information is forwarded over to the hiring agent. In the days of the old, that meant that a hiring manager would take a look at your application and your resume and then decide if they wanted to give you a call. Unfortunately, many of these are agents. There is no real job, and you just go into a database that sends you a link to fill out an additional application and, of course, submit your payment so that they can help you find a job that meets your needs. Personally, I feel that this is false advertising and every one of them should pay a fine. These fly-by-night companies are, at the very least, annoying. One other thing that is annoying as hell is the medical posts. Out of 100 posts on one site, more than 90 of them were for the exact same position in different areas. The position is a traveling nurse. After going through the 10th page of the same post, I decided to apply. I was sent a link to go over to the website to fill out an additional application and submit my payment. Interesting.
The Lazy Day.
Yesterday, I worked my ass off. Today, I made the conscious choice to do as little as possible. Before the sun broke the horizon, I was finished with the job sites, and that was sitting on my rear end doing nothing. I played with my guitar a bit, and I am working on tuning the violin, but that was about it for the day's motion. I did some significant meditation and played with the 3D printer, a disaster. I downloaded a Pagan calendar, which was highly detailed, but it did not go well. I do not believe it was a flaw with the printer but the model itself. I took the day to relax. It will be one hell of a week, and I wanted to be well-rested before the morning.
Febuary 10, 2025
Down but not out...
The week did not start well, and I am $45.00 down on day one. It was just a slow day and even though I put in 10 hours, some personal issues broke it up. I do not know how this is going to reflect on the rest of the week, but we shall see. The big topics of conversation today were the Super bowl from yesterday, and the appearance of Taylor Swift at the game. I remember when football used to be football. I wonder what happened to those days.
Rough.
I can see that this is going to be one of those weeks. The rides were down for today, but the big issue was an 8:00 AM cardiologist appointment for an ultrasound. This was one of the most annoying doctor's visits I have had in a very long time. The ultrasonographic professional, upon entering the room, immediately put on a YouTube video of some Christian zealot talking about how we are all going to hell because of the way we are. Since the medical professional had a captive audience, there was little that I could do about it. Add to that the fact that she was extremely rough and bruised my sternum; it was not an enjoyable experience. The ultimate insult is that I will not get the results of the scan for 9 days. When you think about it, this is going to be a total of $200 out of pocket for what should have been able to be handled in a single visit. This is how America is dying from 1000 pinpricks. We are being nickeled and dimed to death at every turn of the wheel. The $200 out-of-pocket is going to be the specialty copayments. And because of how it is coded they are not an inclusive service. It makes me very angry.
By the time I got home, I was feeling on edge after running the rest of the day. I did not like taking the time off work to go for this visit, and I did not like that it put me down almost $50.00 for the week on the first day. Now I get to play catch-up. When I got home, the ultrasonographer pushing into my chest was killing me, so I just wanted to go to bed and sleep it off.
Febuary 11, 2025
Do it...just do it...
This was not the most pleasant of days. I started my day at 3:00 AM to play catch up for the week. When the day began, there was a heavy mist in the air, and it was not long before it turned into rain. That rain continued throughout the day and did not work wonders for my mood. As the day progressed, I think that people got a little annoyed. Unfortunately, that also means that they had become more reckless. I only saw one accident early in the morning, and that was at an on-ramp near I-240. But as noon rolled around, drivers became more erratic, and there were about a dozen accidents on the 240 loop and on 385. Thankfully, these were near the end of the day, and I was able to avoid any serious issues. I am still running down for the week but caught up a little.
Annoyance.
One of the things that I am finding most annoying right now is the fact that everybody out there seems to be involved in some kind of scam. Yesterday, I spoke to a hiring agent for one of the railroad support companies. They were very excited to speak to me and thought I would fit the company well. All I had to do was come in for a face-to-face interview and go from there. The opportunity was a decent-paying job and a bit of a change to the routine. I took the interview. The hiring manager came across like a used car salesman; of course, there was a hook. They would be more than happy to have me on the team. All I had to do was pay my $500 for the training course, and they would get me on the roster. Will they put this in writing? Of course not, because you must pass the course before they can do anything. Will they write that I will be employed if I pass the course? Of course not, because it is dependent on the availability of positions. How many positions are available? That varies from week to week. How many are available this week? He did not have those numbers available. I did not even tell him that I would think about it; I told him right to his face that it was a scam, and he walked out. I would report this, but who do you report it to? They're shutting down all arms of the government to protect the people.
That being said, here is something that should probably go into a rant box, but it's not going to. Over the weekend, a popular food truck was raided by people who have been identified as ICE agents. What makes this one particularly annoying, and I'm using that word very lightly, is that they invaded this food truck wearing nothing but hoodies without identifying themselves. They took three employees into custody, assumed to be deported. Here is my problem. These agents of government are nothing more than thugs. They have not gotten up to the level of the German Secret Service yet during World War 2, but they are getting damn close. They wore masks and hoodies. They did not identify themselves, and because of the agency they work for, they are not required to have a warrant. I believe they were fortunate because if I was in charge of a food truck and the masked invaders came into my establishment, I am pretty sure I would make every effort to protect myself and my business. If I were armed, I would use my Second Amendment rights. But you're still in a kitchen in this case, I would have been very stabby. The video of this event does not look like a police action. It looks like the mob is abducting somebody. And nobody gives a damn because of the orange clown. In Germany, people were silent. They no longer teach history in high school, and we have forgotten it.
This is fun..
..obvious sarcasm...
Febuary 12, 2025
The long and short...
There were issues today. I have information, but it is from unverified sources. What I do now is that I was traveling long distances for brief rides. According to one of my fellow drivers, this is because our outlying drivers, who usually run areas like Piperville, the outskirts of Germantown, and other such areas, are no longer with the company. This is because many of them are immigrants, and there has been a concerted effort to snatch these people and deport them. I do not know what their immigration status is, but the rumor is that up to 30 of them have been grabbed and are no longer with the company. I've seen nothing on the news about this, but since it was happening one-on-one, it's not impossible. What it does do is create an environment where the city drivers, like myself, have to go to the outskirts to do the short runs. As a result, after expenses, I made less than $10.00 an hour today for an entire shift. It's not a good thing and very frustrating.
What a day.
I feel as if I am facing some medieval torture. No matter what I do, every time I turn a corner, I get hit in the face with a mallet and knocked back a few steps. I worked through the day they burned through a tank and a half of gasoline for minimal reward. When I got home, I was exhausted and frustrated. I've chosen to chalk today up to a fluke, and I am hoping for a better day tomorrow. I got home, ate dinner, relaxed, and hit bed early.
Pushing through..
..nothing to see here...
Febuary 13, 2025
Da rain boss, Da rain...
We are only in the middle of the week, and this has been a test of patience. Because of some unforeseen circumstances with the company, quite a few drivers are no longer with us. This is putting a significant amount of work on the rest of us. Usually, that would not be a problem, but in this case, it leads to very long drives to a very short ride. While these rides can add up, they don't do so if it takes 1/2 an hour to get to each of them, which is unpaid time. It is very disheartening. Add to that the weather. It is Gray and overcast and does not look like it will clear anytime soon.
Getting bone-weary.
All of this week, I have been feeling like I am running behind. However, that is because I am riding in a negative mood, and there is nothing that I have been able to do about it. When I wake up in the morning, I don't feel like getting out of bed, and when I hit home, I am ready to sleep. I recognize the signs of depression, and there is a very good chance that this is partially due to my age. I may be in the male equivalent of menopause, or menopause as some have called it. The lack of energy, the lack of drive, and the lack of interest in the world around me. Even meditation and exercise do not resolve the issue. I hope that it is a temporary situation.
Febuary 14, 2025
A short, long day...
I managed to push through the day and end early, and i just barely met the goal for the week. This has been one hell of a weekend i am very glad that it is over. The weather is holding at a steady rain and overcast skies, but the heat was like summertime. I could not wait to end the day.
Time to rest.
Even though I had a significant part of the day off, I did very little other than relax. It has been one hell of a week and I just needed some down time. I watched a movie, and i worked on my databases.
You are kidding me..
..right?...
Febuary 15, 2025
Now, this is a bad day...
I got myself up and in motion very early, and I hit the road. It was still raining cats and dogs, but even near midnight, a lot of people needed rides. I got on the road as soon as I could, and I was making a killing, and then bad things happened. At about 4:00 in the morning, the car notified me that there was low air in one of the tires. It was not low air; it was an actual flat. That happens when you get a railroad spike through your tire. I tried to get it fixed at Love's, and they were being uncooperative, even to the point that they shut off the compressors for the truck islands, so I had no choice but to pay the $2.00 for 60 seconds of air. So much for customer service. I sat at Love's for about two hours, waiting for somebody to get out of the way. Then, I limped over to Firestone and ended the day. I made just enough to cover the tire that I had to replace. It really sucks because there was a lot of business this morning.
Screaming zonkers!.
The flat tire took the wind out of my sails, not to say that there was a lot of wind in them. I've spent the entire week running the gambit of negative emotions, and this was just a perfect end to an ideal week. Of course, that is all sarcasm, as I'm sure you are aware. I got the tire fixed, or should I say replaced, and then I headed home for the week. The first thing I did when I got home was do all of my job sites and get that out of the way. The rest of the day was spent taking care of the big list and getting a few things set up for tomorrow. One way or another, I will blow this mood out of the water. It is getting old.
Even God rested..
..on the seventh day...
Febuary 16, 2025
Time flows...
With a day off comes a bookkeeping. I went over the entire week and it could have been much better. It was not a catastrophe, but i had to scratch for every single dollar. I double checked all my numbers and that was the end of work for the day.
Lilith, On my mind.
Meditation today brought thoughts of Lilith and Hecate. I am not sure which one this is, so you can use your imagination.
A Day, and the wheel turns.
Since it was my day off, the first thing I did was hit my regular morning list for the weekend. Part of that includes updating the 3D software and my Photoshop software. As you can see from the artwork above, I have some cool new filters. They walked well, hand in hand, with my meditation for the day. And believe me when I say that the meditation was excessive.
The first issue was that I got up a little before midnight last night and I could not get back to sleep. I made the conscious choice to take full advantage of this and I got all of my daily stuff done well before sunrise. Then, I broke into one project that I had been putting off. Because I have no way to move the data off of the computers until I get around to another fun money day, I have very limited space. Even as such, I finished going through all of my optical drives and if I calculated right, I lost about 30% of my stuff to degradation. I was able to read the directories, but not the information. So I have a list of what I lost, and I took about an hour today and eyeballed what I had lost and potential sources for it, and i can regain most of it. So I will get that started sooner or later. Then I broke into the task of verifying all the information that I pulled off the optical drives. It is going to take a long time, but I think it will be worth it in the end.
I settled in and did my social media accounts and I read the news. I have been putting the news off for a very long time. It is just so draining. I knew that I would find one or two tidbits to make me laugh though. Surprisingly enough, they did not come from the highest office in the land. They came from the second highest. J.D. Vance Must have been feeling neglected because he went overseas and made an ass out of himself. I'm not going to go into what happened because if you really want to know, you can look it up. But we have put clowns in office and we have no choice but to expect the circus.
I took a very short nap this morning once Laura was up and in motion, and then I broke right back into the big list. Today would probably have been a good day to get my passport picture taken, but I completely forgot about it again. I have put it on the list for next Saturday and now it is a line item said there's a good chance it will get done. Then, I have to figure out how to set an appointment to get the actual passport taken care of. But I did get through a lot of the list. Some of the most significant things that I did were to do some serious meditation and some of my at-home exercises, which helped me get into a better mood. Then, it was time to tackle the garage. I pushed through and got about 1/4 of it done. I ate a late lunch and watched "Smokey and the Bandit."
Febuary 17, 2025
Far and wide...
I like it when the week starts decently. That happened today. Expenses were high because I had some long runs without a backhaul, but I still did well financially. I think it will all equal out in the end. It seems like I was hitting the extreme edges all day. Sadly, there is no challenge or quest this week, but there is the pending doom of potential snow later in the week.
Full AI.
I can see the draw of artificial intelligence. This image it is 100% AI created in Photoshop. The only thing that I told it was to draw a spaceman. This is not my work; this is the work of a computer.
Pushing through the day.
It is only Monday, and I am exhausted. But it was a decent day, and when I got home, I did the Photoshop update, which included an update to the artificial intelligence processor, and then I decided I would try it. It does a decent job, and it does it quickly, but I believe I could do better. Other than that, it was a typical Monday, and I was in bed early so I could start out early. We have severe weather later in the week, and I want to stay ahead.
That uphill feeling.
..Not good...
Febuary 18, 2025
Fight for it...
I could hit my goal for the day, but just barely and in time. It made for a very long day, like pushing that rock up the hill. There is still some severe weather incoming, and it has everybody freaking out. The biggest issue is that it will be very close to zero, and that will not be a good thing. But I made it through the day and made it home safely.
My version.
Believe it or not, this is not my type of art. I was never into the spaceman thing, but after the artificial intelligence rendering yesterday, I figured I would take my hand at it. Total processing time was about 3 hours. Pretty much everything in this work is stock.
Not better.
My mood fluctuates, and the surrounding cold is not helping at all. I pushed through the day, but I did it without the vim and vigor. It was just another day, and there was no excitement about it. Everybody is freaking out about the pending weather, and it is putting everybody on edge. That is never fun. I figured that when I came home, I would relax with some Photoshop work, but it barely took the edge off.
Snow and ice.
..Not so nice...
Febuary 19, 2025
Memphis did well...
I woke up to bitter cold and ice with snow. I was slightly tempted to go back to bed, but I chose the High Road and headed to work. I was very impressed with the drivers around Memphis today. First, there were not many people on the roads; they were cautious. But of those that were on the roads, they were not driving like idiots like they did the last time it snowed. I only saw a handful of accidents, most of which were slip-offs where people took a turn too quickly. I pushed through the day, and all things considered, it was mundane.
A horse, of course.
I am a cat person. As such, I draw cats when the mood strikes me. Recently, I've decided that I have to delve into different aspects of my life. So here is a horse.
Stressful.
The day was stressful due to the ice and snow. Work was straightforward when all things were taken into consideration, but when I got home, I needed to relax. I am working with my new Photoshop tools, and I made a horse. It's not really my thing, but it came out well. I am looking forward to finishing the garage so I can break out the oil paints and do some authentic artwork instead of the digital stuff. As has become usual, I was in bed early and had my sights set on tomorrow.
Febuary 20, 2025
It happens, but...
This is some universal cruel joke. Even with the bad weather, I was having a decent week. I even had quite a few reservations, including one that was worth $75. As I was heading to that reservation, the car sputtered whenever I would go over 55 miles an hour. I limped through the rest of the day and completed the reservations, but I had to end the day early and head over to Firestone. I had to pay over $800 for what equates to a tune-up. They changed out the coil and the spark plugs. I used to do the same thing in my driveway for less than $25. The world has gone wonky.
Back to horror.
I wanted to scream, but instead, I let my art speak. This was done in a 3D art program to create a wire frame, and then I added the textures.
A big grrr.
I am very frustrated with prices right now. Anytime you take your car in for service, you pay an arm and a leg. I have the same thing going on with the doctor's visits, and everything is just starting to get on my nerves. I feel like birds are pecking away at me. I do not understand how people managed to live this way on a day-to-day basis. Especially those who do not have the drive of my family and me. While sitting at home waiting for the car to be completed, I put my frustration into a piece of art. It is not pretty, but it reflects how I am feeling right now. Thankfully, Laura was off today and could pick me up and drop me off. I have been craving Taco Bell lately and that is what we did for dinner. Hopefully, that craving has passed because even though it was good, it did not agree with me. But I should be back on the road tomorrow and all should be good.
Back at it.
..and the world spins...
Febuary 21, 2025
To the finish line...
The work week ended with a fizzle. It was neither a good nor a bad day so that I will take it. I pushed through, and I was able to meet the weekly goal. The expenses weren't nearly as bad as I thought, except for the extra expense of repairing the car. I am glad that this week is over and things are returning to whatever we consider normal. The ice and snow this week had people on edge, and we are back to the ongoing communication and conversations about the country's political state. I try to do my best to keep my tongue, and we shall see how that continues.
Something different.
I am stretching my creative mind this week, so here is something completely different. I do not hate it and I do not like it.
The end has come.
I have to say it outright that this was one hell of a week. I had three missed opportunities where I could have worked additional hours, but something got in the way. I am hoping that this is only a partial setback and that things will continue with the status quo next week. I would like to get ahead.
With an excellent piece of news, they are bringing back the challenges next week, even though they are quite small. At least they will be something. I have to focus and push through. It may take a little time, but I do not doubt that we will get there.
When I finished the day, I had quite a few hours left before I had to go to sleep, so I broke into the creative universe. I have done pretty well this week, and I am doing my best to spread my creative wings. This weekend, I intend to do a lot more work on the garage and take care of the vehicles as soon as they warm up, which is on top of running Lyft. I don't know if I'll have time to do any 3D work, but I want to finish my week-long artistic journey and get the violin tuned. We shall see how things work out.
A decent day.
..Finally...
Febuary 22, 2025
Time and again...
I put in seven hours today, which is much better than the last couple of weeks. I would have liked to have done a bit more, but I did not get enough sleep and I chose to air on the side of caution. I did not want to press my luck. But that ends out the week and we can move on.
Me?
When I got off of work today, I decided I would take some time to meditate and look at the self. This is how I see myself. Interesting.
DONE.
The week has ended and I am finally caught up with everything. When I got off of work today, I had a specific plan, but as usual, it did not go quite as I felt it should. I tried to take a nap, but there was some kind of rhythmic thrumming in the neighborhood, keeping me awake. I ran some errands, and I did my best to stay on task. However, I managed to run into Sam's Club and not get distracted by the goodies, and then I did the same thing at Aldi's. But I admit that the temptation was there. I was soooo tempted by the roses for the yard.
I did my final piece of artwork, which you see above and I started the data project to replace those things that I have lost off of the digital devices. It is an extensive list, but I was able to knock a chunk out of it. It is kind of funny that one of the things that I lost, I almost could not recover. "The attack of the mushroom people" From 1963 is a piece of horror that I find fascinating. It is in Japanese, horribly written, and horribly acted. But it is one of those films that you just have to watch. At first I could not find it, and then I found it on the Japanese website that allowed me to download it. So it is back on my hard drive. The only problem with that is I am running critically low on space and to be able to resolve that depends on my work on Saturdays. I am still a couple of weeks away from ordering my external storage. But I will get there eventually.
We were able to take care of some of the stuff around the house, and we had some family time, and I am going to count today as a good day. Laura Did some cooking, but I did not. I wanted to this week, but I want to try something new, and I am not quite ready for that. Maybe next weekend. I have no idea what I want to try yet, but I will get there sooner or later.
Finally, I was able to find Starblazers. It is a cartoon from the early 1980s about an attack on earth in the valiant effort to cross the stars to get a resolution. It is strange the things that I remember. But I found it, and now I have it. Tomorrow, will be a day to catch up on everything else.
Finally.
..Time to relax...
Febuary 23, 2025
The day off work...
The day off work is the same as it ever is. I tightened up the spreadsheets for both of the ride shares and that was the end of the day. There are some days when it is just good to sit back and sigh.
A day of getting done stuff that wants to be done.
Since I did not have to work today, I had the day to myself. On top of that, the ladies were out of the house for a significant portion of the day, so I had the house to myself. I used that to my advantage. I started with saxophone and violin. I am still trying to get the violin tuned properly, but being able to enjoy the Sax for a while was a lot of fun. Then it was time to bend down and get my hands dirty.
The first part of the day was indoors, so a lot of that was computer. I am down to three entries that have to be modified and then my data resolution is complete. I am about 10% complete in recovering the files that were lost to the digital purge, but it is coming along even if it is coming along slowly. One of the most significant issues in getting things ready for storage is the library. Surprisingly, I only lost maybe 100 files out of close to 1,000,000. And they were all public domain and easily recovered. The only problem with the library is that there were two copies of it. One copy was the raw data, and the other was the stuff that had been sorted. Of course, I had to lose half of it, and it was the stuff that had been sorted, so I am back to square 1. But that is OK because I will nibble away at it.
The big project for today was the garage. I rolled Netflix while I was working on the garage and I finally got the big and bulky wooden shelves down. I have the small cubes in their place, but now I have to figure out how to fit everything in. We shall see how that goes. It is a process. But on the plus side, I kept Netflix rolling and I watched a couple of movies, even if they were in the background. I watched Uglies, A dystopian tale about control and beauty and those that would fight against it. It was a pretty good movie. IT, Some of Stephen King's better work, even though I do not like the remake as much as I liked the original. They've broken up the story instead of putting the interaction with Pennywise from their childhood into the main story. Instead, they have made it the main story. I am sure that there is a second version of it out there somewhere that I have not seen. Finally, there was Spaceman. This is an Adam Sandler flick. But I have no idea where this was made or how Adam Sandler got involved. It seems to be Czechoslovakian in origin. The storyline is about an astronaut that is visiting something beyond Jupiter on a one year round trip, and he receives a giant spider as a visitor. They become friends. I do not really like Adam Sandler, and I am not sure if I like the storyline or not. It reminds me of a soap opera. Anyway.
But the big thing for today was the garage, and I'm going to choose to be happy with what I got done instead of being upset by the things that I did not. You will notice that there is no artwork today, and the only extra thing that I did was practice my Spanish. I was very focused on getting the garage in order.
A good start.
..Woo hoo...
Febuary 24, 2025
Good days...
There were not a lot of reservations today, and at first, I thought it would be a terrible day. However, that changed as the day progressed. There is a small quest in effect and that requires a total of 60 rides. Normally, that would not be an issue because there are usually quite a few very short runs. But that was not the case today. My runs were stacked back-to-back and they were right next to each other. Only a couple were under $10, with most of them being much more significant. I ended the day making a pick-up reservation for another driver who dropped the ball. It ended the day nicely, and I was close to 250. I will take it.
Long day.
I pushed along a little longer than I intended for work and was drained when I got home. I took the time to reset the brain and finished up the series project. That project was pulling all of the series off the digital storage and putting it on the hard drive. One of the problems is that the files were named improperly because of the sources. So, I had to go through each and get them adequately named and numbered. I also had to create a list of missing files due to the data integrity problems. There are maybe 150 files that I have to look for, but everything else is resolved. I'm feeling pretty good about it.
Once that was done, it was time for dinner and an early bedtime. Tomorrow is my follow-up visit with the cardiologist, and he and I are going to have a few words. I do not like the way that I have been treated by Saint Francis karma, and I am not going to keep my mouth shut. The health care in this country has gone downhill, and I do not like being treated like something on a conveyor belt. But you do not get to complain about it unless you say something about it, and that's what will happen.
Still ahead.
..and counting...
Febuary 25, 2025
Another day...
Another day and here we go. Today was short because they had to spend 2 hours at the doctor's, but I still rolled ahead somehow. I even made it home around 3:00 PM, which was my goal. Today's rides were over $10, and everybody was chill. I feel like I am in the storm's eye, and I am unsure if that is a good or bad thing. But it is a thing and I'm going to roll with it. I am about $75 ahead for the week and I will take it.
That is over.
The most significant incident of the day was my visit with the cardiologist. After five months, I am finally able to put to rest the comments that my primary care physician made. It has been eating at me for all this time that the physician's assistant told me that it was possible that I had a blockage in my heart. The fact that they dragged their feet for five months on this subject was getting on my nerves. The cardiologist confirmed today that that is not the case. In fact, my plaque level is doing very well, especially considering I am almost 60 years old. The most probable cause of the Primary Care comments is an electrical issue in the heart. There's something that is very common. However, generally, I am in good shape. The only thing that remains is to have a stress test done and that is going to be completed by the end of March.
A little bit of annoyance in the world of government is the blind ignorance that is going on right now. Elon Musk has admitted that he has installed software in all these departments across the government that are watching things. We have spent decades protecting against exactly what he is doing. The people of the United States have spent millions of dollars on antivirus and anti-spy software to keep people out. And the current administration hands Elon Musk and his army of jackasses the keys to the city. And nobody is concerned about this. The decimation of the intelligence level of the American voter is terrifying. The sheep never realize that the shepherd is the enemy until they feel the steel at their neck. And this country is walking blindly into the slaughterhouse. I fear that we are at the point of no return already, and by the time we are ready to fight, we will have already lost. It is very frustrating.
On a lighter note, I put in an application for a 90-day temporary position as a host for a podcast for Lyft. They want to put together a rideshare podcast that shares the experiences of drivers with an array of interesting topics. I seriously doubt that it will go anywhere, but it's a fun thought. I'm still trying to get my webcast together, and there just always seems to be something in the way.
Finally, we are heading into spring, and it is time to start getting things in order. My thoughts have turned to the yard, and it is time to do something about the moles, I want to get some fruit trees, some roses, and possibly some other flowers. This is something that I need to talk to my wife about because unilateral change is never a good thing. So I need to put that on the list of things to talk to her about, possibly this weekend. Considering that I am virtually retired, I lead a pretty busy life. I also need to start scheduling time at the gym now that the cardiologist has cleared me. Fun times!
It is the day with the .
..HUMP...
Febuary 26, 2025
Getting better...
The days are getting better and today is no exception. I rolled hard for a very long day and I was all over the Memphis demographic. There were very few problems and everybody was reasonable for a change. I could really use more days like this.
Rest and relax.
I am still feeling kind of Moody, but I took advantage of the calm day. Work was insignificant but profitable and I was not completely exhausted when I arrived at home. I took the time to sit down and watch "Green Lantern", and I was not that impressed. I called an early day.
The week is .
..winding down...
Febuary 27, 2025
Almost over...
The week is almost over, and so is the month. I cannot say that this has been the most fantastic month since I started driving seven months ago, but it was not terrible. Today, my writers were more intense about political stuff, and it wasn't easy to deflect the conversation. Tempers are rising again, and people want to talk about it. One thing that many people do not realize is that rideshare drivers are part psychiatrist and part bartender. Sometimes, you have to smile and nod. And that is how today was. I put in a nice, long day without genuine problems.
Feeling off
I am pretty sure that the riders and their incessant need to talk about the state of the government partially conditioned my mental state, but it put me on edge. By the time I got home, I was a bit frustrated and annoyed. I turned on Netflix, relaxed, and tried to shake off the day. The weekend is coming, and I am hoping for some relaxation. Now that I have the cardiologist behind me and I am pretty sure that I am not going to die anytime soon, I am feeling a lot better about things. It has been five months since I was potentially diagnosed with a heart blockage. The cardiologist alleviated that fear, and they can even return to the gym. That gives me a goal for this weekend, and I intend to take full advantage of it. Along with getting quite a few other things done, if I am lucky.
Febuary 28, 2025
The end of the week is here...
The end of the week is here, and I hit my goal plus about 10%. That is not relatively as high as I would have liked, but it is something. Of course, as we know, there is no pleasure without pain. Once I got even driving, I went and got my oil changed, and I noticed that there is a small crack in my windshield. Of course, that crack had to expand, and it is not entirely illegal yet, but it is headed in that direction. It is something that I'm going to have to deal with sooner or later, and I should start looking into it now. I hope to find a windshield company that will come to the house without a significant extra charge. The thought of sitting around for hours and waiting for the car to be finished exhausts me. But the oil change went well, and there aren't any other significant issues that were noted. That is the end of the week and the month for Uber.
Roll on you crazy diamond.
When all things are considered, it has been a decent week so that I will take it. Once I got done with work, I hit the house and have half a day to relax and reflect on what I want to get done this weekend. The ladies and I are going to Joann Fabrics tomorrow morning because they are having a going-out-of-business sale. I anticipate that that will take three to five hours, putting a dent in the day. I still have about 10 digital discs that I have to go through, including one that is a bit of an enigma. I seem to have made a backup of something that has an auto-launcher. For my life, I cannot remember what it is. Whatever it is, it is enormous and covers five disks. I do not know if the discs are intact, but I intend to find out this weekend. The damn thing is 20 years old and I can't, for the life of me, figure out what I would have made. The other five discs are photographs, which I am pretty sure are backups of what I already have. But I will go through them anyway. I will probably do that tomorrow. Once those final 10 discs are cleared out, it all comes down to organizing the data to create USB backups shortly. I also want to ensure I set up a gym regiment for the coming weeks. I have to do a stress test in about a month, so I need to spend some time on the treadmill. I do not think I am quite up to par with those requirements right now, but I think I can get there.
Because this is the month of February, today is the last day of the month. I cannot believe that we are two months into the new year already. Time has passed way too quickly. I have to update my physical journals this weekend, and get everything is in line. I have been behind on things for way too long, but I think that I can get that taken care of now. I have not been sleeping well, and the dreams are getting on my nerves. I am sure that some of that is because I have been slacking off on my exercise, yoga, and meditation. It is a domino effect. The garage is in disarray, which means that my workout area is nonexistent. I have to get that taken care of.